Pei Wen♥

2010-07-29T07:40:00.001-07:00

You left me with a hug, and I was left with a broken heart.

2010-07-29T07:12:00.000-07:00

I think there's no word in the Universe to describe how sad I am. 12 days? Without you for 12 days? Without you for 1 day is already hard enough. I just can't stand being away from you. Almost every morning of the week you would be the first person I see. First person I talk to. And I can't imagine it all gone. Just like that. For such a long time. I miss you from the day you told me you were going. So can you imagine how much I miss you right now? If I could I would stop the world and stop time to this afternoon. To get back those moments. When there was just. You. and. Me. I would be perfectly content. I really want to hug you tight. And never let go. Ever. I don't want to let you go. I want you to stay with me. Right by my side. In approximately, 8 hours, we would be 5315.37 km apart. A distance I wouldn't mind covering if I could so that I could just see you face. Even for that split second. I don't know whether I can take it. Being apart from you. It's going to be hard. Very hard. I just hope I wouldn't cry. But now I know, in 13 days time, we would both be staring at each other. And we could be together again. Well, I'm that, like what you said, your heart will always be with you. But it isn't enough. I want you. No. I need you. I will still have my friends but without you it wouldn't be perfect no more. No contact. For 12 days. At least when you went to Paris, you could use your computer and I could text you. But now I can't. I really want to cope with these 12 days as soon as possible. Let it just fly by, even though I know it's impossible. I'm going to remember and treasure this afternoon a lot. The moment we shared. One of the best times I have even had.

I love you. Superman. And I miss you. Truckloads.

2010-07-28T06:28:00.001-07:00

I'm content with life. But sometimes I just can't take the shit that is thrown towards me. I want to just step aside and let it fly pass me. But I know it will come back to me. So. I face it. Complications. Life is full of them. You can either chose to accept it, deny it, fix it or don't care about it. It's just the way you look at it. I think that life doesn't have to be complicated. But is we, ourselves, forging it that way. Life is simple, short and supposed to be enjoy. But we human enjoy bending it creating complications in our lifes. Instead of pause for that short moment, looking around and say 'Wow, life is just amazing.' We should not take for granted of what have right now. However, we are all still humans. We aren't perfect. We all have our flaws. But denying them isn't the way to go. We should always try to fix them. Haiz... I know that my life is very good. Good parents, good life, nice friends, can do we I like and all, but sometimes, sometimes, I crave for more or easily get angry at little little things. But I've always been fixing my problem. If you meet me 3 years ago you would know. I love life. And sometimes I think I'm really blessed. I thank everyone around me for that. But I still hate that part of me. The part where I sometimes can't control my emotions.

2010-07-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

FUCK HER. Fucking bitch. Always throw my things without asking. FUCK HER LA. Retarded. Not first time liao. 3 times already. How about if I do it to you huh? I throw your things, how fucking happy would you feel? I don't think you would be. I'm a person too. I have feelings. If I keep it it would mean something to me right. No brain. You do have any fucking idea how that fucking thing fucking mean to me? It fucking means a lot okay. I really want to screw you. I seriously want to cry right now. That thing is so precious to me. It has sentimental value. Bitch face.

2010-07-26T08:21:00.000-07:00

To some bitch:
Who do you think you are? Have authority? Doubt so. True power is from the people. Whether they want to follow you. And as you, yourself, knows no one cares about you. Please look around. When you demand something no one even cares. You say you won't change who you are, but take a look at yourself. You can see all your flaws. At least I'm trying to fix mine. Unlike you that continues to think that you shouldn't change for other people. But have you thought that if you change, it would be for yourself. For the better. Don't think you're such a big shot. You're a bitch. No. A mega bitch. Because everyone's a bitch. I know I might have an attitude problem sometimes but if you're human you should understand it happens to anyone and everyone. I don't understand what guys see in you. Do you have strong points? Your studies aren't the best, you're unreasonable strict at times that aren't needed and you aren't the best-looking person around. I'm totally not saying I am any of those but seriously. Why do guys like you? It's a theory I would never understand. And are you dumb? I think you are. Cause after I blew my top I tried making peace with you however you didn't. So is it totally my fault then? All I have to say is. You're the pot calling the kettle black.

2010-07-05T02:22:00.000-07:00

2010-06-29T04:00:00.000-07:00

I heartzxc Superman, MonMon, WongWong, GWrace, Dearest, Jie, Babycookie, Crazyheart, Meow and Nessa. ♥

2010-06-29T03:58:00.000-07:00

Hey... I realised I'm a bad shooter.... Cause I keep missing you.

-Superman*

2010-06-29T03:53:00.000-07:00

Why do you even dislike me when you don't know me? Hahas! I think it's hilarious. It isn't my fault anyways. But I just don't want to see you. The sight of you makes my blood boil.

2010-06-29T03:50:00.000-07:00

Why? Haiz... I also don't know why. I don't want to feel this way. But I guess I'm plainly stupid, as I listen to my heart.

2010-06-15T07:43:00.000-07:00

A quick one, ain't gonna put much pictures.

Thrusday, 10 June

Training. Then went to IMM with Grace, Monica, Briana and Xinhui. Ate Pepper Lunch then left me and Grace walk around IMM. Talked then went home at 4.

Friday, 11 June

Finished half of my homework.

Saturday, 12 June

Had training. Then went to Cityvibe for lunch at MOS with Meiling, Noelle, AmandaL, AmandaN and Regina. Then went to Jurong Point. Walk walk then rush home then went to ballet. Had a great time, as usual.

Sunday, 13 June

Forgot le...

Monday, 14 June

Great day! Woke up at 7.30 and went to play golf. After that went home a while then headed to West Mall to fetch Noelle, Meiling, Monica and AmandaN. They went to my house after that and then Monica and AmandaN went to pick up Grace. 5 hours, 6 people, 309 photos. Kept camwhor-ing. Went to Grandpa's house after that, had dinner talk talk then went home. By the way, if you read Grace's blog, she say she didn't post her unglam jumpshots, so now I post! :D

Tuesday, 15 June

Training again. Went to IKEA with Grace, Monica, Briana and Sweetze. Took some pictures and walked around. Rushed to Clementi to meet ANDREA!! So long never see her!! Miss her so much! Went to MOS so she can eat after that sadly Grace had to go for her tuition. Then Andrea, Monica and Sweetze came my house. Played Monopoly! Sooo fun and funny! Hahas! I WON! At 7.15 they went back le.

Baketball Outing. 08062010

2010-06-10T01:24:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, 8 June

OMG! I absolutely LOVE this day! It is the most super duper uber fun day of my life!!! (I think)

Let's see. Had training in the morning and it was really slack due to the aftermath of rain. There were still dark clouds hovering above as if it was going to rain. After training everybody rushed to change into our slippers, and we headed for Sentosa!

Walked under a drizzle towards SP and took bus 166 to Vivo City. We overtook the whole bus with our numbers and made tons of noise. Took some photos on the bus too. Upon reaching Vivo City all of us went to the toilet and the whole team took photos in the baby diaper changing room! After that walked to Mac at HarbourFront for lunch and back to Vivo to take the skytrain to Sentosa.

At Vivo we bought some snacks and after buying our tickets took some group photos too. Posted at the bottom of post. When the skytrain came we all rushed inside and continued camwhor-ing.

We stopped at the Beach station and rushed to find a spot to put our things on Siloso beach. After that we all swam, played volleyball and ate. Haha! Best thing is that me and some of the others swam to this little island.

Went to shower next and took photos again!!!

We went back to Vivo and some of us had our dinner together. After dinner and ice cream took the same bus back but slowly parted with the rest.

08062010 is a day I know and hope that we all would never forget. Through that day we bonded as a team. All for one and one for all. Everyone enjoyed themselves because we had fun together. We would hopefully forever share this wonderful memory.

Since the rest of the Yellow People also posted this, so here goes! :D

YELLOW FAMILY FTW!

I heart (in no particular order) GraceW, AndreaW, MeilingC, MonicaL, NoelleN, AmandaL, AmandaN, BrianaY, SweetzeL and ReginaC.

Photo credits to Andrea, Amanda, Grace, Meiling and Noelle! Thanks!

2010-06-10T01:22:00.000-07:00

08062010.

I was reassured.

2010-06-09T01:26:00.000-07:00

I don't know what I've been feeling nowadays. I have this really distant feeling. Am I getting tired of it? I don't know. But what I know is, the moment I see you my senses come alive. My heart races and skips a beat. The world just suddenly disappears and I could only see the two of us standing right opposite each other. Staring back at one another. With those few seconds, I am sure of how I feel towards you. I was reassured.

2010-06-09T01:10:00.000-07:00

Friday, 4 June

Monica came to my house. Talked for 3 hours. Took pictures.

Saturday, 5 June

Had training. Went to MOS with Grace then followed her to go buy her socks. Went home. Didn't have ballet again...

Sunday, 6 June

Played golf, after two years... Very fun. Lost some balls to the lake though. Had tepanyaki for dinner after that.

Monday, 7 June

Rot at home.

2010-06-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

Total eclipse of the heart.

2010-06-03T07:38:00.000-07:00

Once a upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm falling apart.
Once a upon a time there was light in my life, now there's only love in the dark.
There's nothing I can say or do.
The total eclipse of the heart.

Basketball.

2010-06-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

I love you. BASKETBALL GIRLS!

Holidays.

2010-06-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

Haha! Monday went for Amazing Storytelling camp. It was really interesting but somehow the guy keep staring at Andrea, Monica and me cause we were making a lot of noise. Stupid person. Group with Annmarie, Andrea, Joey, Monica and Sheryl. Did the stuff. Went lunch with Isabel, Hannah they all. Went home with Isabel. Talked a lot! Currently after every training, all the basketball girls would go out for at least lunch together. Tuesday was out with everyone and really wanted to eat MOS but it was packed so went to SUMO instead. Stupid Grace. Haha! Kidding. I love you!!! Pangseh Andrea and I so after that went straight home... Wednesday rot at home had a Taiwanese Drama Marathon! Watched like siao. Nothing to do at all!!! Today... ROCKED LIKE SHITASSZXC!!!!!!! Went for training and was already aching like siao from previous training. Today's training was up tp standard with our Sec 1 training I guess... Hmmm... Practically the whole team died today!!! Was so tired and everyone also have muscle ache... After training something happened and I had to have my life crossed with people I really hate... Don't feel like elaborating... But I have to say, I love you mum! Thanks Andrea, Grace and Monica for waiting for me! Bus-ed down to West Mall and ate at Swensens for lunch. Woah... We were talking about really creepy stuff. Haha! If tonight I cannot sleep I go find you all!!! MONICA!!! Had to go again D: Haiz... So went to buy some cake thingys and went to Andrea's house with Grace. Wanted to swim but didn't. Played around and bit and HAHAHA! Talked about some stuff!!! NEHNEH LINE! Then after that I went home and Andrea sent Grace home.

2010-06-03T07:05:00.000-07:00

Have been sick for 2 weeks. Didn't go school for 5 days. Went back on the last day, almost died? Was kind of afraid of people, in general human beings, at the start. And was really sick. Haha. Saw him. Felt better :D See many people I miss too, felt wayy better. Got back horrid report books. Level position drop like shit. 26 :( Had to stay back for some retarded Award thing. And school ended.
So sad!!! I want to go school. And NOT study! :D Everyday at home so sian. Everyday training worst... Haiz... Holidays would be very fast though... So much homework and stupid shitty projects. Teachers just throw them at us like nothing like that. You don't have a life, I pity you. We have lifes okay?

2010-05-18T04:56:00.002-07:00

2010-05-18T04:56:00.001-07:00

Trust.

2010-05-18T03:59:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but I always feel as if I ain't very important to you. And we are drifting further and further apart. And after some things, I have a feeling that I can no longer give you all my trust. Although our feelings towards one another are still true and strong, but sometimes I am afraid. Afraid that the wall of trust we have built, is slowly breaking down. Bit by bit. I had almost given up once or twice, because, to me you sometimes make me feel that I aren't important to you. But there is always this strong pull that holds me back. And that is everytime you say, I love you. Because just with those three simple words that you say, my heart simply melts away. And with that instant moment we look into each others' eyes, it's as if I know everything you are feeling inside.

School.

2010-05-18T03:34:00.000-07:00

Tuesday
School, got back Math. Got 80/100 :D Science, total 76/100 D: History was hilarious!!! I'm so happy with my results!!!! 50/100!!!!! Cause I didn't study at all!!!! Had training. Super pissed by two things right now...

Monday
Got back English, Literature, Chinese and Chem. Mostly have super shitty results cause didn't study! After, went to Cityvibe with Andrea, Grace, Amanda, Charmaine and Monica. So fun!!! Went home, played Monopoly like siao.

Sunday
Rot at home.

Saturday
Had training. So sian... Wanted to sleep! Did super little things then training end early. Went to MOS, and Noelle, MeiLing, Regina, Andrea and Monica went to my house. Played stuff then go ballet. Muscle ache like shitass. Old already... Too long never exercise.

Missing you.

2010-05-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

Be different.

2010-05-15T08:46:00.000-07:00

Happiness.

2010-05-14T05:17:00.000-07:00

Too shy...

2010-05-14T05:16:00.000-07:00

After mid-years.

2010-05-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

Woah. Mid-years (sorta) flew by. Exams officially ended today and of course I went out, before I get back my horrible results. Went to Jurong Point with Esmeralda, had a bit of a rough start. But it is all good. Pepper-Lunched. Watch Backup Plan. Completely hilarious. Kept cracking up in the theatre. Was supposed to watch that movie with someone but didn't. Sorry! Surprisingly, Amanda, Grace and their friends were also watching that movie and sitting right beside us. So sat with Amanda. Haiz... Amanda! Why you keep making out with guys everywhere? Haha. Went to walk walk after the movie with Amanda and Esmeralda. We literally ran everywhere to find a toilet. Had to pee so badly. Home-ed at 5.

Ignore.

2010-05-14T05:03:00.000-07:00

I have a thousand and one things to say to rebut everything
you said about me. But then, I stopped for a moment and
think, "Hey, why am I wasting my life on being unhappy about
other people, when I can live my life to the fullest."

Open blog.

2010-05-14T04:57:00.000-07:00

Haha. Opened my blog. After a whole ridiculous charade,
that was totally meaningless, childish, un-called for, good
-for-nothing and retarded. That made a little part of myself
died inside due to the senseless rubbish.

2010-04-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

If love is stupid, then I stupid you.

I hate this.

2010-04-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

I hate it when I want to be close to you, and yet can't hug you tight.
I hate it when I really want to talk to you, and yet when you're infront of me I just can't.
I hate it when I am looking at you, and yet you ain't looking back at me.
I hate it when I could feel that we are so close, and yet so far away.
I hate it when I have the urge to hold you, and yet don't have the courage to.

And I really hate it when I miss you, and yet can't see you.

2010-04-23T06:16:00.000-07:00

I had my heart beaten down, but I always come back for more. There's nothing like love to pull you up, when you're laying down on the floor there. So talk to me, like lovers do. Walk with me, like lovers do.

2010-04-23T06:14:00.000-07:00

What do you say to taking chances, or jumping off the edge? Not knowing whether there's solid ground below or a hand to hold.

2010-04-23T05:59:00.000-07:00

I'm through accepting limits, cause someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change, but till I try, I'll never know. Too long I've been afraid of, losing love I guess I've lost. Well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost.

Science Centre!!!

2010-04-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

Today was UBER cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Went to Science Centre with some of the people in the Secondary 2 level.
Ate Mac there. Went to see really nice stuff.
Build our own model of a green building! Very funny!!!
Saw tons of other cool stuff! Took pictures with Isabel!, HuiLing! and JiaYing!.
Bought my Freeze-Dried Ice Cream.
And the blurrest people in the class, LiAn and DeKai, didn't board the bus home.
And I was like laughing so hard at them!!!!!!
Waited at school with Isabel. Talked about SUPER sick stuff.... Hehehe...
Sent her home "WELCOME!"
The End.

When you're reading this I bet you don't find it amusing at all,
cause I'm using a really boring way to post it.

Basketball.

2010-04-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

Review of the C Division Girls Basketball.

1st Match:
Nanyang.
Lost.
Didn't play.

2nd Match:
Jurong.
Lost.
Didn't play.

3rd Match:
Assumption.
Won.
Played.

Final score: 1/3
Out of Zone.

This forces me to conclude that without me, the team can't win.
HAHAHA! Like real.

Don't be sad hor peoples!!! We all did tried our very best.

After basketball match with Assumption, had a farewell party for the seniors! Hehe! Among the Juniors, ate the MOST! Ate 6 rice balls, 4 cheese hotdogs, 4 pieces of pizza and 3 cups of 7-UP. Was really fun then when playing with some of the 2/1 guys, kept chopping my 3-pointer shots! Woo! Then had like yellowish clouds in the sky. Probably due to the sulphuric acid from the Volcano then rained acid rain...

So that's the end of the Basketball Season!

2 weeks.

2010-04-17T22:44:00.000-07:00

Haven't posted in two weeks.
Was too lazy.
Cried like hmm...
4 times.
Maybe cause I bottle up
all the smallest things in my life,
and it finally exploded.
First,
because of a fucking biatch.
Second,
I forgot why le...
Third and fourth,
cause of my retarded class and same people in it.

Bad stuff that happened.
Phone is crapped up due to water.
And still is...
My plegde was uber fast.
Didn't get to play in the competition.
Got hit on the head by *Ahem (you know who you are...) tons of times
and I think I'm getting stupid.
And just read a retarded blog post,
and pissed the hell out of me.

Good stuff that happened.
My home econs recipe tasted yummy.
Monica and I went out lots.
Went out with the basketball girls <3.
Had time with *Ahem.

Selfish.

2010-04-17T22:35:00.000-07:00

WTF.
What's yours will be yours.
And what isn't you can't force it.
I know your feelings but you should know mine too.
You are human and I am one too right?
I went through so much more than you to get it,
but how about you?
You think you can just come and snatch it away.
Please. Think again.
I understand you are thinking for your friend.
But don't you think you are a tad bit selfish?
If you are in my position you would understand.
If he likes her,
I will let him be.
But the problem and the fact is that,
he doesn't.
I ain't trying to rub this in your face.
Cause I perfectly understand what she is going through.
So please.
Clear your mind and have a fresh start.
I'm not forcing you to change your feelings,
but just think again.
Are you sure about what,
you are feeling now.

2010-03-27T04:47:00.000-07:00

So what if you wrote it down on paper. I wrote it down on my heart.

POINTE!

2010-03-27T04:33:00.000-07:00

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA GO ON POINTE AFTER MY GRADE 5 BALLET EXAMS!!!!!!!! WHICH IS LIKE THE WEEK AFTER NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-03-26T04:21:00.000-07:00

It takes only one song to make you think of him.

2010-03-26T04:20:00.000-07:00

Reality started seeping in through the cracks, and I realised this was all a dream.

2010-03-26T04:15:00.000-07:00

手牽手一步兩步三步四步望著天. 看星星一顆兩顆三顆四顆連成線.

Events week.

2010-03-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

This week is events week! Had normal school day on Monday and training. Tuesday went to ECP! For CIP. Didn't even do much. Haha! Remember at Mac and even now, LiAn and me still collecting fog! Hahahaha! Went to CityVibe buy bubble tea for lunch! Had training again. Wednesday had Oral! A little nervous, yawned a lot though... After had lunch with XinHui, BriBri and MonMon. Truman go extra. Haha! No la. Then he come with me, YanMin and Amanda also come... Kinda awkward. Haha! As usual... I look at him, then he look at me. Then both look away. Which repeats over and over.. Haha!!! TOUCHED HIS CAST!!!!!! Didn't talked much though... Sian. Thrusday was cool! Had Chinese Oral much more nervous I guess... Then went out with MonMon, BriBri, XinNgee, SiewHua, Wanling, Chelsea and AnAn. Go IKEA eat!!! Choked on potato almost died... Spent all my money... Went bowling!!! Had 2 strikes only... Fun though! Haha! And during the whole day I kept saying 'Tomorrow got Sex Ed!!!' and all of them got pissed! Hahahaha! Oh! And Wanling asked me what to bring on Friday. Then I was like tomorrow Sex Ed what! Don't need to bring anything la! Erm... Then we both said.... Condom! HAHAHAHAHA! Then had training... Again... By the way! Congratz Amanda Lur! For making the team! TODAY HAD SEX ED!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA! Sadly, like Truman predicted..., it wasn't so nice cause erm... I kinda know most of the things liao! Hahas! Then went to C Divison boys match.... Lost by a freaking ONE point... Lost my voice for nothing...

Oh! And remember that picture Truman?!?!?! Hahahaha!
OVERALL! A FREAKING COOL WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT ROCKED LIKE SHITASS!

Listen!

2010-03-26T03:47:00.000-07:00

TRUMAN TAN JUN HUI! GO LISTEN TO NEVER SAY GOODBYE BY JOJO.
WHEN YOU LISTEN FINISH TELL ME!

Can't believe.

2010-03-26T03:36:00.000-07:00

Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it.
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Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it. Still can't believe it.

I don't know long I'm gonna take to believe it!!!

Hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tons of stuff...

2010-03-26T03:24:00.000-07:00

10 days don't really seem that much but tons of stuff happened. Let's see...
Went for training during the holidays on Saturday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thrusday and Saturday. CHECK.
Being made fun of on Wednesday by juniors because of Truman. CHECK...
Whacked SweeTze with the ball 3 times for making fun of me. CHECK!!!
Me and MonMon (AnAn) went out tons of times. CHECK.
Finished most of my homework. CHECK!
Friday's homework day didn't do homework. CHECK!!!
Had ballet lessons on Saturday, Monday and Saturday. CHECK.
Learnt how to play (roughly) Haru Haru - BigBang, Wedding Dress - Taeyang! and Shuo Hao De Xing Fu - Jay Chou!!! on piano. CHECK.

Well that wraps up most of the holidays for me I guess. Sorry. I know I'm super boring.

Long time again...

2010-03-26T03:23:00.000-07:00

Haven't posted in like exactly 10 days...

Grrr....

2010-03-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

I HATE YOU TRUMAN TAN JUN HUI!!!!!!!!!! BREAK YOUR ARM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COPY MY PHONE COVER SOMEMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO CLOSE OF ME RE-BREAKING YOUR ARM, BITING YOUR HEAD OFF, FINDING MY BASKETBALL FRIENDS TO COME AND BASH YOU UP AND ME KICKING YOUR THERE....

Things to say.

2010-03-16T05:31:00.000-07:00

Like tons of stuff happened these pass 3 weeks(?).... I think too many for me to remember...
First week the Friday is cross-country! Competitive got 59 runners! I 11th!!! Haha! But still very noob la!!! Went out with my class the people go watch movie!!! ALICE IN WONDERLAND IS SOOOOOO NICE!!!! Haha! LiAn and I kept making fun of the White Queen! Hahahaha! And during the movie sitting beside LiAn and Edison, Edison with LiJun, Hnnah with ZhongXuan. LiAn and me like extra sia! Then we kept laughing at Edison and LiJun because of... Ermm... Something... Haha!!! Last week had meet-the-parents prefect duty... Very sian for the first shift but then second shift very fun!!! Glenn kept pulling me sleeve...... And pull my hair... Stupid Senior Citizen!!! Haha! The prefects got scolded for being too noisy! Hahahaha!!! My parents lazy to come so I take my PPR myself. Marks damn noob... Talked to Joel and KokTong's mothers! Haha! Erm... Dismissed at 7.30? Waited for mother until 8++ Bastard and Bastard's friends wait with me dont know for what... Bastard should go follow "someone" mah! Pathetic! OH! And RETARD! never go school... STUPID TRUMAN TAN JUN HUI! BROKE YOUR STUPID ARM! NEVER GO SCHOOL FOR ONE WHOLD STUPID WEEK! YOU VERY STUPID LEH!!!!!! Haiz... No hope... Then you are like stalker some more... STALKER! GOT INTO SCHOOL TEAM! Dont play much though! I TOO NOOB LIAO... Sian... Saturday MonMon and I go West Mall ate Swensens spent like tons of money... Haiz... Then wanted to go take neoprints but the cashier person scolded MonMon cause she wear Training Tee on a count of she went in first! Haha!!! We dont know do what la then I go ballet... Then Sunday go watch KAIJI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love him so FREAKING much!!!!! So shuai!!!! Watch with my brother and his girlfriend! I got there lightbulb... Monday MonMon come over again! We did some(?) homework? Haha! I finished my Home Economics Research! Go Buddy Hoagies eat! Haha! MonMon now scare of eating Fish & Chips liao! Haha! Go ballet again. Today got friendly match!!! Didnt play much but the few minutes I played I did a lot of stuff sia! Haha! Then I bought this milk drink then cannot finish in the bus keep asking LiAn, LiAn you want to drink milk?! Freshly squeezed one lehz!!! Haha! On the bus we two siao one... Smsing each other when we so close only... Then when reach school I ask all the girls go CityVibe with me! Haha! Too hungry liao! Eat MOS!!!! We there freaking noisy all the people complain! HAHAHA! Then go toilet take pictures!!! The End!

Long time...

2010-03-16T05:28:00.000-07:00

WOAH! Like super long time never post liao... Forgot blog password and Hotmail screwed up so yeah...

2010-02-28T00:40:00.000-08:00

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2010-02-28T00:34:00.000-08:00

Weird...

2010-02-28T00:30:00.000-08:00

Don't know why. But I've been having these weird feelings lately.

Ballet.

2010-02-28T00:28:00.000-08:00

Live, Breathe, Ballet.

HELP!

2010-02-25T04:36:00.000-08:00

OMFG!!! I seriously want to talk to you! But I can't break the promise I made for myself. It has only been one day... I need a really super distracting distraction! What the hell am I suppose to do now? HELP!

Kindergarden.

2010-02-25T04:27:00.000-08:00

You know I really like Kindergarden. When I could be carefree. And when I did something wrong, I wouldn't be scolded. When there are less important choices to be made. When you don't really know what's going on. Also when you are afraid you can just tightly grab on to your mother's hand. Lastly when you don't have the frustrations of who we are today.

Nightmares.

2010-02-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

You find yourself waking up to a nightmare.

No. I do.

2010-02-25T04:09:00.000-08:00

It's not that I don't care. I'm trying not to. Cause everytime that thought's in my head, which is always, I will feel like crying. If I was allowed to do anything in school, I think I would be sent to WoodBrigde. I would be screaming running around like some maniac. I obviously care. I am human too. I have feelings. But I don't like the feelings I am having. In school, I'm trying to put on a mask that I am fine. I'm still trying to laugh and be my normal carefree self again. And you should too. Esmeralda told me that she saw you walking outside her class lifelessly. Cheer up. Like you said as long as I like you and You like me it's all fine. But now I want to be isolated. I ain't gonna totally bottle up my feelings but I ain't gonna let them out either. Give me maybe 2 weeks or so. I never really got scolded in my life before. I need a little time to recover. And of course I still like you. I am unreasonable but not to that extend. It isn't entirely your fault, it's mine too. Do you know how much I would want to talk to you. To forgive you and let everything just slip by? But somehow, and I don't why know, a little part of me is saying "No. Don't forgive him. Just carry on your life without him." But I obviously didn't do so cause I knew it's gonna hurt real bad. Now. One day not talking to you ready hurts, I don't think I can ignore you for the rest of my life. I think we should have a moment of silence. I need to sort things out with myself. So I hope you would understand me when I say I just need silence.

My heart.

2010-02-25T04:07:00.000-08:00

I cried my heart out knowing that she knows everything.

The worst week so far in my life.

2010-02-25T03:26:00.000-08:00

I have always groaned about how uninteresting my life is. And I think I should stop.
This week is the worst week ever so far in my entire 13 years. On Monday, whole team got scolded by coach I had to explain to him and Ms Peh about everything... Didn't play enough basketball. On Tuesday, had friendly match. I only went in for like 3 minutes. The whole game was as if only Noelle MeiLing Regina Monica and Panda were playing... Again. Didn't play enough basketball. Wednesday. There is just too much to say about Wednesday. First. Got scolded like shit for some damn freaking retarded shitty idiotic moronic incident. She read all my stinking messages. But I don't blame her cause I am wrong. She knows EVERYTHING. She went to talk to my mother in PERSON. The moment she talked to her, I can't stand it anymore. Buckets of tears literally were pouring down. Good thing she didn't tell my mother everything. Today I was so totally paranoid with all my teachers. Afraid that they know too. But nothing happen and nothing happen during her class too. Basketball was hilarious. The start was completely retarded. It was so hot and it was drizzling... Like wtf?! Then during match I got totally pissed off but the new girl. She smashed my whole body then I literally said fuck to her face. I was so pissed I started banging into her then all the girls were like "Jia you Pei Wen!!!" Haha! Then I totally snatch the ball from her and then went for a lap-up and it went in! Haha. Followed by two really nice shots then I wasn't angry liao so just play for fun liao lor.

Lies.

2010-02-21T06:53:00.000-08:00

What's life without lies, to spice up the story.

Heart.

2010-02-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

Looks don't matter. What matters is what's in your heart.

Crap.

2010-02-21T06:49:00.000-08:00

I thought all these kind of crap happened in only movies and books. What is it doing in my life? You better not get me into your shit, or I will break you.

21/2/10

2010-02-21T06:40:00.000-08:00

Wake in the morning and sadly didn't feel like P.Diddy... Haha. Did the super hard Math homework. Discussing with Megan for the whole morning how to do on MSN. Took one hour on one particular question in the end seriously can't get a correct answer... Gave up... Tried my very best. No hope... Was sooo bored afterwards played Club Penguin. Lame. I know. Showered. Changed. Go to father's friend's house. Know about a third of the people there. Didn't talk. Used phone until no battery. Came home. Parents bought a music box like antique clock. Was rocks. Can change songs with different dics. One of the songs was super nice. Looked it up on google. Now learning it on the piano. But keyboard too pathetically short can't play whole song. Skills too long never train too pathetically stupid. Equals to might never be able to play whole song...

No way.

2010-02-20T08:33:00.000-08:00

WARNING!!!

WHAT I SAID IN MY PREVIOUS POST,

DID NOT.

I REPEAT DID NOT HAPPEN TO ME.

Love...

2010-02-20T08:31:00.000-08:00

You spun me around, in an instant I shut my eyes. The next thing I knew, I felt soft tender lips on mine.

About Childish Behaviour.

2010-02-20T07:52:00.000-08:00

To me, Girls are mature and Guys are the total opposite. They go through large extends to achieve something they cannot have.

Chinese New Year... Part Dos

2010-02-20T07:43:00.000-08:00

Was doing math homework. Livinia came over. Was in a sense forced to play Wii with her. Haha. The love(s) of my life, SiMin JieJie and WanNing JieJie, came over. Eat stuff. Do stuff. Play blackjack won $2. Talking to Esmeralda now. About stuff.

Call, Black Face Method.

2010-02-20T07:36:00.000-08:00

Black Face Method.
How go out having slightly overly protected parents.
Written by Koh Pei Wen.

Instructions.
Ask nicely.
Persist.
Persist.
Persist.
Stop.
Black Face.
The next day...
Persist like siao.
Then you go!

IT WORKS!

19 February 2010

2010-02-20T07:27:00.000-08:00

School = Boring. During recess patrolling, called mother persist like mental. Finally allowed to go. I so smart in the first place bought clothes to school cause I know she will allow me to go in the end. Went to west mall with Briana XinNgee XinHui. Only had $10. Mum came west mall. Gave me extra $20. Ate at Swensens. Talk a lot. Went to arcade took neoprints again. Beat XinNgee score at basketball. 127. Bought the love of my life Bubble Tea. Went home

Don't say it.

2010-02-18T07:03:00.000-08:00

Don't say 'I Love You' when you are still unsure of your feelings and definitely don't say it when you don't even mean it.

School.

2010-02-18T06:57:00.000-08:00

School was school. Basketball was once again not tiring at all. Since juniors came... Sian... Nothing makes me tired anymore.. Basketball Sec 2 girls going to West Mall tomorrow. And unsurprisingly my damn mother don't allow me to go. Bitch. Tears were literally rolling down my cheeks..... It isn't the first time liao. Can't I just go out? It isn't like I always go out. And you are the one who always send me to school and back. My freedom is so limited and small that it is the size of a green pea. I know you care for me but still... I have a life right? Gosh! Can't you just let me live it.

Freak you.

2010-02-18T06:55:00.000-08:00

FREAK YOU LA FREAKING BITCH. JUST GET OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE.

Pretty?

2010-02-17T06:28:00.000-08:00

You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess.

- Pei Wen ♥

School.

2010-02-17T06:20:00.000-08:00

School. Is well as usual. Had Literature and wrote the haiku below. Had the Total-Defence thing. Yay. No Chinese. Saw "exciting" extinguished flames and pathetic bomb shelters. Ran SP today. Finally. Wasn't tiring. Want to run again. No homework today. Now blogging out of boredom. Staring at the computer waiting for something interesting to happen.

Poem.

2010-02-17T06:15:00.000-08:00

Oasis without water
Green grass patches laid along amongst
them fuchsia flowers bloom.

A haiku I wrote within 10min during class.

Thought.

2010-02-16T00:16:00.000-08:00

I thought you were the knight in shiny armour that remembered to pick me up at 7. Maybe I thought wrong.

Promises.

2010-02-16T00:12:00.000-08:00

I treasure promises. And always try to fulfil them. They are easily made and at the same time easily broken. Once is still fine. But twice? You are lucky you have achieve a high place in my heart or else I will thrash you. So I now chose to avoid you 'til the end of day. Or even more as I'm still uncertain. I know fussing ove this matter is ridiculous but I am a very weird person, and if you can't accept that, then move on. I will not feel offended whatsoever.

Fallen.

2010-02-15T02:52:00.000-08:00

I fell in love with you when I saw you standing there.

- Pei Wen♥

Chinese New Year Day 1 & 2.

2010-02-15T02:46:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year is here. Had new clothes and Went to Grandfather's and Aunt's house to eat. Gambled. But sadly not a lot. Lost $2 overall from Blackjack, Russian Poker and Poker. Relatives came to my house and I took pictures with the love(s) of my life. SiMin and WanNing JieJie. Collected Ang-Bao. $436. And pictures on FaceBook.

Yeah. So that's it. Don't feel the need to elaborate

on Chinese New Year...

- Pei Wen♥

Valentine.

2010-02-15T02:44:00.000-08:00

Yes. Of course I would be your valentine. With no second thought♥.

- Pei Wen♥

Late.

2010-02-15T02:43:00.000-08:00

I know I'm a day late...

A Day Late.

2010-02-15T02:42:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year and Valentines Day!

Today was a fairytale.

2010-02-13T00:05:00.000-08:00

Today was a fairytale♥.

Tangled.

2010-02-12T23:55:00.000-08:00

The first love, is the one and only true love. I'm all tangled up inside and my heart is on my sleeve. Tomorrow is a mystery to me. It might be wonderful, it might magical. It might be everything I've waiting for, a miracle. But even if I fall in love again with someone new, it could never be the way I loved you.

- Pei Wen♥

Love

2010-02-12T23:39:00.000-08:00

Love. A very strong feeling of affection. It cannot be easily forgotten. It is unlimited. You can always give more love to someone. Amount of love slowly builds up within years, but in seconds that wall can be easily broken down.

For me, I have never told anyone, except anyone related and is very close to me, that I love them. As if one day they don't love me back, I would be crushed. As if I was some rose that was step on at the side of a road. It would take me an amount of time to heal, but before I heal I would be bleeding. That no one, except that person, could heal me back to original. I once solemnly swore that I, unless am 18, that I would never love any guy. And I'm really afraid that I might break.

I'm confused now. Is there a word in between like and love? If there is I would want to know. Cause I do not have the courage to say "I Love You". The thing is, I can't deny the fact that actually in my heart, I think I sort of love you. I ain't sure at all whether that's what my heart is exactly saying, or it is what I want my heart to say.

I really don't know. But I know that for now. I can't tell you that. I. Love. You.

- Pei Wen♥

I believe you.

2010-02-12T23:36:00.000-08:00

Heard your explanations. And of course I believe you.♥

- Pei Wen♥

The not-so-I-Love-You.

2010-02-12T17:19:00.000-08:00

Disappointment settled in when I saw the erased "I Love You."

- Pei Wen♥

Falling in Love.

2010-02-12T07:25:00.000-08:00

Sometimes you just can't control the way your

heart feels.

Made for me.

2010-02-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

You are the thunder and I'm the lightning. And I love the way you know who you are and to me it's exciting. When you know it's meant to be. Everything comes n aturally when you are with me baby.

- Pei Wen♥

Today.

2010-02-12T07:10:00.000-08:00

Hmm... Moving on... Truman walked me to class and we exchanged our Valentines Day present. Thanks again for yours. I love it. Mine is all crappy but you said you would like it no matter what. So, what the hay. Received presents from friends too. Special thanks to XinHui. Ferrero Rocher is now officially my bestfriend. After school had meeting then play basketball with the guys. And actually was going to take bus to PeiHwa with Truman but my mum send me there. He broke a promise and was going to make up to it. After meeting Mr Mariah Fartinma Choy, Joy Ktyn XinWei and me went to west mall. Wanted to watch Percy Jackson and blahblah... (wouldn't be stuffed write the entire title) but too late so Sakae Sushi-ed and Arcade-ed. Took neoprints as usual. When on the bus home, saw the love of my life. Angela. Haha. Talked a little than I got off the bus and walked home. Ate all the treats given to me and is now full from all the Japanese food I just ate.

That's the end of my "interesting" life.

- Pei Wen♥

The Desicion.

2010-02-12T07:08:00.000-08:00

Seconds became minutes, minutes became hours, hours became days and so on. Dragging it farther isn't helping anyone. My desicion is set. Whatever scheme you might in future come up with ain't going to work on me. I vow to not regret this desicion, as it was decided with my heart. Thus, I will not look back and wondered what would have happened if I chose you. Cause now I know I am making the right desicion.

- Pei Wen♥

Blog again.

2010-02-12T04:00:00.000-08:00

A fresh start to a better future.

Let bygons be bygons.

Move forward and never regret the past.

YEAH! I REOPENED MY BLOG.

Is that good or bad?